Shepard
Founder
I got a few things I want to say regarding this entire thing... I know what you guys want/need and I am going to do it. Things will go back to how they were before and i'll continue to work on getting 4.0 ready for this month but first I want to say a few things.
This is not Caitlyn's fault and I don't want any of you to think it is for a second... This is my fault. For the last nearly 3 years I have been the owner of this community. I have been around for every single thing that has ever happened in the community. I have met THOUSANDS of people since then and have made countless friends, acquaintances and enemies. From someone who has literally come and stayed with me in my own home for a week to people who have told me they wish for nothing more than for me to kill my self and or everything i've worked for to come crashing down, i've even had to get police involved before when people started making threats to swat me and my family. Throughout all this time i have also tried to make it my number 1 goal to be unbiased and fair to people, weather it be having to tell someone I used to consider one of my best friends he is no longer part of the executive team or turning down hundreds and hundreds of dollars when people would try and bribe me for levels, items or what have you. I have always tried to do what I would want the owner of a game I enjoyed to do without thinking of personal gain. Sometimes I would falter and waver but I would seek the advice of friends and peers and they would keep me on the beaten path of fairness. I have also tried to be generous at the same time weather it be bailing a friend out of debt, helping a friend buy a new computer or literally flat out buying someone a new pc, buying people games that their friends have all been playing but they cant join in because they cant afford to. I love seeing people come together from Reborn, I love all the friendships that this community has created.
All that being said it has not been an easy road... Friends have come and gone, the server has seen peaks and lows, i've made mistakes and had great successes. This has been more than a full time job for over the last year for me. Most of you looking in from the outside may not see it but even though I may not be directly working on the server or in a meeting with a developer or any of that, its still something that at any moment something could happen and I have to deal with it. Many many times i would leave for a small break and within the first few hours of me being away im getting phone calls and messages because X terrible thing has happened and I need to take care of it. For the last month "yes its been exactly 1 month today" I have been spending a lot of time with Caitlyn on and off the server, you guys may not know her or know where she came from but she is important to me. Yes she has been getting special treatment from me, obviously I am going to treat my girlfriend different than other people that is just expected, but it goes against the image I have created for my self. It's just when you find someone who is really important to you, you can't help but want to make them feel special. A lot of you have been saying don't mix Reborn with my personal life, the problem is reborn is my personal life. I'm pretty much here all day weather it be on the discord, on the teamspeak, on the website or on the server. All of my friends are on reborn and all my time is on reborn, hopefully you understand why it's not as easy as just "dont mix reborn with your personal life".
I understand what you guys want and that's what I am going to do. This isn't supposed to be a OOOO POOR SHEPARD post or a give me pitty post, I just wanted to try and give a little bit of my perspective on it. It's not well worded and it may not make any fucking sense, i've never been good at putting how i feel in text. Just know I do care and I will fix this.
Also no more threads about caitlyn, let me handle this.
This is not Caitlyn's fault and I don't want any of you to think it is for a second... This is my fault. For the last nearly 3 years I have been the owner of this community. I have been around for every single thing that has ever happened in the community. I have met THOUSANDS of people since then and have made countless friends, acquaintances and enemies. From someone who has literally come and stayed with me in my own home for a week to people who have told me they wish for nothing more than for me to kill my self and or everything i've worked for to come crashing down, i've even had to get police involved before when people started making threats to swat me and my family. Throughout all this time i have also tried to make it my number 1 goal to be unbiased and fair to people, weather it be having to tell someone I used to consider one of my best friends he is no longer part of the executive team or turning down hundreds and hundreds of dollars when people would try and bribe me for levels, items or what have you. I have always tried to do what I would want the owner of a game I enjoyed to do without thinking of personal gain. Sometimes I would falter and waver but I would seek the advice of friends and peers and they would keep me on the beaten path of fairness. I have also tried to be generous at the same time weather it be bailing a friend out of debt, helping a friend buy a new computer or literally flat out buying someone a new pc, buying people games that their friends have all been playing but they cant join in because they cant afford to. I love seeing people come together from Reborn, I love all the friendships that this community has created.
All that being said it has not been an easy road... Friends have come and gone, the server has seen peaks and lows, i've made mistakes and had great successes. This has been more than a full time job for over the last year for me. Most of you looking in from the outside may not see it but even though I may not be directly working on the server or in a meeting with a developer or any of that, its still something that at any moment something could happen and I have to deal with it. Many many times i would leave for a small break and within the first few hours of me being away im getting phone calls and messages because X terrible thing has happened and I need to take care of it. For the last month "yes its been exactly 1 month today" I have been spending a lot of time with Caitlyn on and off the server, you guys may not know her or know where she came from but she is important to me. Yes she has been getting special treatment from me, obviously I am going to treat my girlfriend different than other people that is just expected, but it goes against the image I have created for my self. It's just when you find someone who is really important to you, you can't help but want to make them feel special. A lot of you have been saying don't mix Reborn with my personal life, the problem is reborn is my personal life. I'm pretty much here all day weather it be on the discord, on the teamspeak, on the website or on the server. All of my friends are on reborn and all my time is on reborn, hopefully you understand why it's not as easy as just "dont mix reborn with your personal life".
I understand what you guys want and that's what I am going to do. This isn't supposed to be a OOOO POOR SHEPARD post or a give me pitty post, I just wanted to try and give a little bit of my perspective on it. It's not well worded and it may not make any fucking sense, i've never been good at putting how i feel in text. Just know I do care and I will fix this.
Also no more threads about caitlyn, let me handle this.
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