Veys Wicdon
Member
Hi everyone. So you obviously know what this is, but before I begin, let me just say; I'm really sorry that this is happening after I've been MOTO for not even a day. There are (last I was on) 7 other wonderful council members who would and will do a much better job than I ever could have done in that role, so everything will of course be fine. Even so, I know it's awkward timing, and I just want to apologize for any inconvenience this might cause.
Now then; my computer fuckin died on me. I'm typing this from my phone right now. My memory is busted. I'm either going to have to take it in for fixing, or just buy a new computer (which had been a long time coming. That bitch is 7 years old and struggles to run anything. Rip, glorified lap-warmer). So I was just going to post another LOA, but I started thinking about some stuff.
I love you guys. I've loved talking to you, playing with you, listening to you bitch in events. It was really great for a while. But then it was only the talking I looked forward to, and nothing else. I don't know when, I don't know why, I can't think of any specific reason, but at some point, the server stopped being fun for me. I know I was never as active as some people, as far as hours and active times go. But I was still on every night. The only thing that kept me off was if I physically could not make it to my computer. At some point, this stopped feeling like an escape and became a commitment - even a hassle and point of anxiety at some points. I was still able to enjoy moments of it, but not enough to make it feel worth it. I could feel I was getting burnt out, and was already thinking about cutting down on my activity, but it wasn't until now that I really sat down and felt this out.
I might hop on again in the future, but I've no idea when. And I'll probably be in the TS every now and again (if you'll have me).
But, for a lot of people I met on this server, this is goodbye. I've always been really bad at those, so I'm sorry about that, too. I feel bad about this, which I know is silly, and I know this is already too long, so...yeah.
Now then; my computer fuckin died on me. I'm typing this from my phone right now. My memory is busted. I'm either going to have to take it in for fixing, or just buy a new computer (which had been a long time coming. That bitch is 7 years old and struggles to run anything. Rip, glorified lap-warmer). So I was just going to post another LOA, but I started thinking about some stuff.
I love you guys. I've loved talking to you, playing with you, listening to you bitch in events. It was really great for a while. But then it was only the talking I looked forward to, and nothing else. I don't know when, I don't know why, I can't think of any specific reason, but at some point, the server stopped being fun for me. I know I was never as active as some people, as far as hours and active times go. But I was still on every night. The only thing that kept me off was if I physically could not make it to my computer. At some point, this stopped feeling like an escape and became a commitment - even a hassle and point of anxiety at some points. I was still able to enjoy moments of it, but not enough to make it feel worth it. I could feel I was getting burnt out, and was already thinking about cutting down on my activity, but it wasn't until now that I really sat down and felt this out.
I might hop on again in the future, but I've no idea when. And I'll probably be in the TS every now and again (if you'll have me).
But, for a lot of people I met on this server, this is goodbye. I've always been really bad at those, so I'm sorry about that, too. I feel bad about this, which I know is silly, and I know this is already too long, so...yeah.
